Designing a website is not for the faint of heart.. lets leave it at that!

Well it sorta started with the ever presence of multiple sclerosis, the fact that I can no longer work and my long days of having absolutely nothing to fill my time but my own self loathing thoughts….. then… COVID hit, an international pandemic locking everyone down to be with whom lives in their own house, don’t go out now ya hear… you’ll die.. oh FFS.. all my life lines, friends , family sanity taken away in one night. My dr. warned me that my health is very fragile and interacting with others could land me in the hospital or worse dead.. Well that’s enough to scare anyone from seeing anyone and so it was… we began the ordeal of socially isolating ourselves and with the passing days of what is still a never ending onslaught of bad news and new cases popping up every where and every puzzle done, every video game played.. I was losing my patience .. that is until my porch visiting window talking best friend made a suggestion.. she said why don’t we do one of these online paint nights.. so off she went to the store and picked me up paint supplies to drop them off on my porch.. well I didn’t fully agree to it.. but something had to give.. so I started looking up paint nights at home.. nothing thrilled me .. so I told my husband Stuart that maybe a paint night is just too boring maybe I should actually learn to paint..so I looked up painting tutorials and it wasn’t long till I found several,, where to start I thought. quickly i chose Clive art landscapes ok..I can do this.. after muttering to myself I got everything ready and set off on my painting journey sitting on my couch in my worst pjs , exclaiming to Stuart that if this all goes well we can decorate out house with my art which he barked back.. “umm no” Well my first piece was an utter disaster.. ok I said this one sucks .. Stuart responds “yep” love that he’s not much for words and sometimes just the look on his face is enough but he is usually almost always right. Next attempt ok I said I’m really going to try this time.. pausing rewinding , pausing , painting, pausing painting swearing, pausing .. repeat for 3 hrs .. I called to Stuart when I was done so he can look.. he says.. “better” walks away. better I thought wtf that took me hours omg this sucks…. So back to the drawing board. After 2 days of searching I came across a really interesting YouTube channel bosting about Acrylic April. Wow I thought I need to give this a try.. The Art Sherpa states that a painting every day of April will improve your skill or in my case what I thought at the time the lack there of. So I ordered curb side pickup at Michaels got everything i needed to tackle this acrylic April challenge.. I anxiously awaited the start date and there i was day one challenge time this time I’m completely tuned in.. still pausing and rewinds but following along and I created a mountain sunset scene with mountains in the distance.. I was impressed.. Next day was a lesson I wasn’t sure I could even do.. its a lady bug flying on a dandelion seed stem. I was setting myself up for failure I thought.. I finished the lesson and showed Stuart the painting and his reaction was all I need.. just “wow that’s not bad” things got better from there, the pigs, the birds, the strawberries the chick all turning out quiet well and the disbelief on Stuarts face was enjoyable.. I figured it out. Im not a landscape person I like subjects. From then on out I wanted to focus on things and not landscapes.. I was proud of myself and ready for more!